About

I’m a retired Air Force medic currently teaching at a local college. Like far too many, I’ve been abused, verbally, physically, and sexually. I’ve been deployed a few times and traveled the world for work and leisure. By most standards, I’ve had a wonderful life, but for the last 15-20 years I’ve dealt with mental illness. That’s hard for me to admit with all the stigma that comes with it, but it’s the truth. I’ve been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, bi-polar disorder, and PTSD. I’m not sure which of those I truly have, maybe I have all of them. I started a book called The Healing House. It’s a personification of an old 1900 home I’m remodeling. As crazy as it may sound, this house, spoke to me, not in a literal sense, but nonetheless it was a powerful and loud. Seeing it torn apart made me feel torn apart. Watching it being put back together inspires me to move forward with hope for healing.

Through writing, I’ve opened numerous wounds, wounds that can only heal through debridement of the negative emotions that keep them open. I must continue to write until all the tumors of the past have been removed.

I’ve started with deep introspection. It’s been painful, difficult to continue, but I’m determined to close my wounds this time. I don’t intend on leaving anything behind. Will it be a new diet that “fixes me?” Maybe it’s yoga I need or CrossFit, meditation or medication. Who knows, maybe God will answer my prayers and heal me. I’m going to do it this time. I invite you to join me in my exploration. Be a witness to the glorious healing that’s going to take place. My prayer is that as I heal, others will heal.

12 thoughts on “About

  1. Hi..i’m just clicking randomly, and this is so touching, my prayers as I join you in your exploration as you said.. this made me realize once more that we all fight each own’s battle everyday. God, in His might, is faithful and knew what we’ve been through.. He will carry you..God bless..

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  2. Thanks for stopping by. I encourage you to read all the excerpts from my book, The Healing House. I would appreciate your feedback. Thank you for the encouragement. Write on!! jrenee

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  3. Hi jrennee,
    It is my first time visiting your blog and I cannot express how deeply your words have touched me. I have only read one excerpt of your story but it is truly powerful. It was actually very difficult for me to read but so moving that I had to continue. Thank you for sharing. The healing house is a wonderful place and I wish there were just like it 🙂

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    1. Thanks Joyce. I was surprised and excited to see that you were reading my blog. I haven’t been very active lately…took a lot out of me to write about my experiences. But…now I’m ready to start writing again, and this time it’ll be about the healing part. I can’t wait to share the good part of my journey. Stay tuned. 🙂

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  4. Love this! Thank you for your service. I’m very familiar with veterans and their issues and I can only reach out my virtual arms to hug you 🙂

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    1. Thank you for the kind words and for the hug. 🙂 I’m glad you got something out of my posts. I’m excited to start writing again, this time more about the healing. It’s going to be exciting. Stay tuned. By the way, I love your username. I actually have a girls ministry called Beautiful Princess Warriors. 🙂

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  5. I think that most of us are on a Journey, in this day and age, of a Spiritual sort. Whether we are exploring our Faith, our life and what it means to us and the impact that we are making, what lies ahead of us and what have we left behind, have we grown as we expected or are we just going through the motions of living. If we are to find these answers, then we must explore our past, just as you are doing. I hope that you are able to complete your Journey as the restoration of the House is completed, as it represents your experience. Each nail, floorboard, windowpane, stair tread, bannister, doorway and other components will have their own symbolism personal to you, and they all have a story that you will identify with your life. May your Journey of this healing be one of fulfillment, love and happiness at the end of a long, hard road. I look forward to story of your healing, my friend.

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